Krista,
I am sorry to hear your marriage is in trouble. I really hate to tell you this, but tact I have never been famous for, and truth seems to work much better for me, as I still have "chemo brain" and can't keep up with fibs anymore. BUT so many marriages don't make it through Ovarian Cancer and its treatment. My cancer doc even apologized to me about it and said it never ceases to amaze him at the behavior of the many men who are "others" to his patients, he said it embarasses him. I ended up divorcing the man I was with when I went through my cancer treatment, he could not "handle" having a sick wife, and was so afraid that having "sexual relations" with someone undergoing chemo and radiation "there", and it was going to affect his "you know what" and make it glow in the dark or fall off or something he was just stupid about it. I have seen it happen over and over as I have watched so many wonderful women fight this awful disease over the last 17 years. So I encourage you to focus on you, this is a time to be unabashedly selfish about you and your care and health. Go Girl!! Yes I do have a husband, I was married 22 years to my present husband, and we got really "pissed off" one year and decided to go our separate ways, I then married "Mr. Glow in the dark" and that lasted 3 years, til I got well enough to get rid of him, and then my first husband was there to help me through the rest, and we remarried and now we have been married 40 years in total. I am 61, you sound much younger than me, but I am a very young 61, and yes my 14 year old granddaughter lives with us, we have custody of her. As I said she is special needs, emotionally and is doing so good right now.
Don't get too scared, do verbal affirmations daily, and believe in your medical team. I will be praying hard for you, and will put you on my Church's prayer list if you don't mind.
I am very proud of you for your fight and good attitude. But, remember somedays you will be planning your funeral, and some days you will be planning next years vacation, those ups and downs are normal, so don't beat yourself up over it. If anyone of the rest of us are surviving with this, you can too.
Cindy