I've just been thrown into this who CANCAR COMMUNITY and the effects of being an honorary member. I look at the world completly different now. Every magazine, news program, Halmark comertial... is about cancer in my mind. I'm saveing clips of information, reserching diatary info to help care for mom and...
Now I have had diarea and the constant urge to deficate for about a year. I was living in Pakastan for three months of it so I assumed it was just the food and water. Now, I have been in America for 6 months now and it isn't getting any better. I also have the classic syptoms off discharge, pain, cramping, loss of apatite, blood, fatigue. But, my doctor won't listen to me. I have county health due to my limited income and he hasn't spent more then 10 min. with me all year. He actualy diagnosed me with asthma and anxiety because I told him I get so weak it feels like my oxogen isn't getting to my body.
The doctor swares I'm imaging things or that I shoul "just take some yoga, or drink more water" I think were his exact words. I so scart. I'm about to move 24 hrs. from my current home to care for my sick mother and I am feeling more and more like she described she felt right before her doctor checked her. I want to barge into the Dr.'s office and demand a colon cancer screening but...
What if? I have it, I get sick, I can't care for my mother. My mother blames herself at all. My mother trys to take over and care for me.
NO. NO. NO. It won't happen. She will have everything she needs if I have to be in deniel untill the last day of her life and wear depends to her mamorial. Now is not my time... it is hers. I just hope and pray that my mom is ok. I don't have time to worry about me (while I wright this I need to use the bathrom AGAIN).
Talk to you later.
R. Fox smerk