I know what you mean about the after 6pm and before 8:30am thing. I am crying from the time I wake up, in the shower, getting ready, drink some coffee and finally it stops. It is hard. But you will get through this. Your wife is still with you in spirit, I believe that. She was lucky to have you to take care of her. She left this life with great stories to tell the angels up above about you. I heard a priest say once, it is not goodbye--- it is, "
I will see you again". And while you wait your turn to be with your wife again, you must pray for strength and strength to get up. Keep going, stay busy and it will get better. Her memories will remain in your heart . Live a good life, so when you do reunite with your wife--you will have much to talk about. Take control and take care. Dani