On 2/11/2008
nyazgirl wrote:
My dad was diagnosed with cancer on June 1st of 2007 and we lost him on June 23rd. Not a day goes by that i dont' wonder if there is something I could've done to save him.
I miss him more than I ever thought physically or emotionally I could ever miss a human being. I feel robbed by this cancer and robbed by how fast it all went down.
Some days, I'm not sure what I can do to feel better.
Dear NYazgirl,
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your dad. You didn't really have to time to get used to the idea of your dad having cancer before you lost him.
My dad was dx with Stage IV cancer Dec. 18, 2007. Since that time we have had several bumps in the road and some very scary moments. He is very, very sick. I usually handle things ok during the day because I am so busy. But at night when I am washing clothes, or doing other mundane chores the knowledge that I may lose him very soon hits me so hard that I feel like I can't breathe. As horrible as this is for me, it doesn't come close to the pain you're feeling. I can only empathize with you and pray for you. I wish I could do more.
I friend of mine that lost her dad to cancer about 5 years ago told me that the pain doesn't go away or lessen, it just gets easier to deal with the grief with time.
I wish comfort and peace for you.