I come to the board again,to find some support ,and just something that can make me understand, why my childrens father died of such an ugly disease,I can understand we all die, but how he died, I don't think I will ever understand! I try not to question why God plans what he does, My childrens father died 3mts. ago,of stage 4 cancer, when we got the news,I lost my mind, It took all of 6mts. to turn my family,upside down, He and I had two beauthiful daughters, and grandson,He is suppose to be here threw it all,I the stomach cancer just ate him away, I don't thnk he should have suffer like that , I am angry, hurt and this has change my little family completely! I feel so different about everything,sometimes i wake up and think its all a bad dream,he suppose to be here,,then I remember ,he,s gone, i find myseI talking to him ,not wanting to do alot, I worry I cant be both mom and dad, and realize,no one can ever take his place, i always thought he would be here!!