Hi y'all! I am 20 years old. I recently got my second pap smear and it came back positive for HPV. However, the bad news didn't stop there. A week later I got a colposcopy and the doctor found a lession so she did a biopsy. A week later the doctor called and told me I have mild dysplasia (CIN 1). I know things could be a lot worse but this is just the beginning. My immune system is very supressed. I'm stressed with schoool, this and the fact that I don't know how to deal with this alone. I know HPV is an STD. I've only had sex twice. The first guy told me he would get tested for me and come down and be with me if I needed him to. I told the second guy and he hasn't said one word to me. This is so hard to deal with especially if you don't know where you exaclty got it from. I'm very frustrated with the second guy. I'm trying to build my immune system but I'm stressing over stupid things, I just need to except what I cannot change. I can't change the past but its hard to live with the present when the past is knocking at your door over and over again. I'm taking stress vitamins, fish oil and drinking green, black, and purple tea every day. I hope there isn't any more bad new ahead. I really don't think it has hit me yet how bad this really is. I think I'm in shock. I haven't even cried yet. I'm just like a zombie through this whole process. I can't believe this is happening to me. I think this is horrible and I wish that no one had to go through this ordeal. I haven't even experienced life to the fullest or loved someone. Who will ever want to marry me now that I'm a virus that can infect them? :( Everything happens for a reason but I haven't exactly figured this one out.