On 7/1/2008
Myfriend wrote:
I'm so sorry your dad went down hill. But, working for a Hospice myself (Odyssey HealthCare) it is the best gift you could have given to your dad. I don't believe in giving up but I do believe in hospice when there is no alternative. I know if the hospice you have is anything like the one I work for, he is getting the best of care and his last days will be a gift you have given to him. My prayers are with you and I know the hospice will not let him suffer.
Take Care
Maria
Thank you so much for your kind words. My dad is STILL fighting as he always has, but we are noticeing more signs that he is heading towards his last days. He has begun seeing things now......some things I've decided are his angels.....and then others I believe are just halucinations. He has a hard time remembering days or things that have happened, and sometimes he thinks he's been somewhere when he hasn't even left the bed. I think the hardest thing is watching him....for lack of a better word....."lose his mind" and the fact that he is sooooo skinny he looks emaciated. Sometimes I wish God would just let him close his eyes and go to sleep and join him.....but then I'm so thankful for each day I still have with him. Being a "daddy's girl" it has been really hard, but I am the backbone of the family and keep my strength going for my mom. I know it will be soon.....but I've also prepared myself 3 other times for him to pass at any time and it didn't happen. So I keep my safe wall up until I know for a FACT that it's about to happen. It's just too much of a roller coaster ride of emotions to try and prepare myself for the enevidable until I know it's time. Anyway.....thanks again for your support!!! And yes our hospice people are soooooo wonderful and kind!!! They have definately been a blessing for all of us!!
Kristen