I forgot to mention--I understand about the mood changes too. I have them and so does my husband (Robert, by the way) Mine is in an extreme state of denial at the moment. He actaully told me the other day that he doesn't have cancer. So I asked him why is he going to have chemoradiation and he said it was just a precaution. The two of us can be sitting in the same room with a doctor and he hears something completely different from what I hear. I was actually very angry with him because of his denial and I felt like I am the only person in this relationship who understands the seriousness of this. But then I finally realized that if he is happy in his "I don't have cancer" state, who am I to deny him that? (This of course happened after I asked him point blank if he intends to fight this or not because I feel like I have a right to know) After our conversation, I feel much more at peace. I was able to tell him how worried I am and now I feel less worried. I've decided I am not going to protect him from my feelings (but I am not going to smack him in the face with them either!). I am rambling--sorry!