not sure if you are still checking this board, but just wanted to write to tell you that i know exactly how you feel. just, plain helpless. my dad was diagnosed with ec at the beginning of july. it has spread to his back. we just started chemo last week. i am so devastated and wanting to take all of this away. i am 34 and feel like i am 8 again and wanting my father tell me he is going to be fine. just wanted to know that you are not alone. not sure what happened with your father, but will say prayers for you that he will be better.