Hi, I was recently diagnosed with thyroid cancer after having a tumour and my left lobe removed. Subsequently, my right lobe was also removed and more cancer was found. I am employed full time, but was off on maternity leave when I got this wonderful news. My employer has now switched me to disability benefits and beginning in May, I would be on disability from an insurance provider. At this stage of everything, I don't what is happening with my life. I am scheduled for orientation and consultation at my local cancer hospital in three weeks. I will likely be scheduled for radioactive iodine following that. I guess, at this point, I don't know or understand what I am entitled to feel. Some people say "at least it's a good cancer". Yeah right...easy for them to say - is any cancer really good?? I also get the distinct impression from some that there is no reason I shouldn't be working. I don't know what I am allowed to be doing. I can say I'm dealing with the cancer by being in a state of denial. I have a baby girl (13 months), a sometimes emotionally demanding marriage, a pre-existing panic/anxiety disorder with OCD that was intensified post partum. Right now I'm pissed off. I'm mad at my body for being sick. I don't know where my health is at. I knew before I even went to the doctor before all of this began that I was sick in some way. I think I can honestly say I'm in a depression, but I'm plodding along through life. I'm stressed about this long term disability and the application process and whether I'm being a baby and just need to suck this cancer crap up. Can anyone help me. Please and thanks.