Hi all, Hope everyone is doing well. Alyssa and i got back from disneyland a week ago.(my mom and dad went with us as well) We had a great time. I thought 4 years old was going to be too young but boy was I wrong. The looks on her face and excitement was unbelievable. I know Shannon was watching down on us with big smiles too.
The days and nights are still no easier I wonder when they will be. Hopefully soon. Is it disrepectful if i take my wedding ring off? Should I put it on my other hand? I find that wearing it I always look at it fiddle with it and then get sad. Maybe its different for someone who looses a spouse at 35 compared to 70 i dont know.
I bought a granite rock that they cored a hole in the bottom and put Shannons ashes inside and its by some trees in the cemetery. It says We Will Love You Always & Forever Sweet Dreams. Its hard to go out there but I usually go once a week even if its only for 5 minutes. My little one keeps asking if I am going to Heaven when I'm 38 too so thats been tough trying to explain to her Daddy 's gonna be around a long time.
Hope everyone out there is fightin the battle as much as possible. I have a little note on my fridge that I read everyday that kinda makes me feel better and for anyone who has lost a family member maybe it will help.
No More Medicine No More Pain.
I miss you.
take care all
Mike