Glad you posted. Wondered about you and Alyssa on Easter. I agree with the others that whatever works best for you is the "right" way to be. You have to honor your own process. Am glad you recognize the small joys such as Alyssa's delight over your recent trip, in spite of the sadness of losing your wife. May your heart's continue to heal, and may you be showered in many of the small but sweet blessings life can bring.