Hi I am a nurse so unfortunately I know toooo much when it comes to the bad stuff that happens to people. I have recently had two abnormal pap smears and HBV positive test. I recently had a colposcopy biospy which showed CIN 2. I am scheduled for LEEP procedure next month. I have read all of the possible complication of the procedure. I am scared of being in pain for days. I don't like the thought of bleeding for a long period of time either. I can relate to some of the people's message about being ashamed of having a STD!!!! I did not tell my husband about my problems until they called me wtih not so good news about the biospys. I did tell him some about it, but left out a lot of information. I can be there for others when they need me emotionally but I have a hard time letting people be there for me. I am suppose to be the strong one. But this matter isn't making me soooo strong. I just want to wake up from this bad dream of reality and just go on with life as nothing was wrong. I am 30, never had a child and would like to have children in the next year or so. LEEP procedure lessens the chance of being able to carry a child. I think I have come to terms if GOD doesn't want me to have a child then I can accept that but if I have cancer......I just can't accept that right now!!! If anyone has any advice for me......please help me!!!!