Hi & thank you so much for your email. Sorry it took so long for me to respond. My Dad passed away on June 24th, only a short time after I wrote my message on this website. Then...2 weeks later I had major spine surgery (a disk replacement).
I was wondering how your Mom's fight w/cancer is going & how your hanging in there. I will tell you that my Dad's cancer just took over and moved along very very fast. Knowing that it would, I'm so glad that he agreed to moving into the Hospice near to my home.
I spent his last 14 days visiting him, bringing him virtually anything he wanted to eat or drink. I told him I loved him more times than I can remember & he told me the same. As promised, I was there for his last hours here & I whispered in his ear that it was ok to let go, that I would be fine & make sure to take care of his body.
I asked him to be my guardian angel & told him to let go. It was by far the most heartbreaking, selfless experience of my life. And I wouldn't trade it for the world. I have NO regrets, and that's a wonderful thing. I am at peace & so is my Dad....but now that I've done all of "right" things...I am feeling selfishly sorry for myself and miss my Dad so much. Time will make it hurt less.
I did keep EVERY phone message during his last months (I had a feeling this terrible disease would take him from me). So now I can hear his voice whenever I wish.
As for you....God willing, you still have your Mom in your life.
All I can say is that I will pray for both of you & your family....REMEMBER there is hope until there is no more hope...so keep the faith & please keep in touch. Take care. Sincerely,
Darlene Cornell