Hi Darlene, my name is Mark, my dad was diagnosed with Stomach Cancer at the beginning of august this year. He had been having some back pain and a loss of appetite for a short time but like some men, didn't deem it important enough to bother the docter with it. I think i understand some of what you are going through. My day was my best friend, my football buddy. He died on september 6th five weeks after being diagnosed. He was 58 years old. What i found really difficult to deal with was the fact he was fit and healthy, never smoked and tried his best eat properly.The feeling of being completely powerless has never left me. Watching someone you love very much suffering like that and not being able to help leaves you feeling useless and empty, thank goodness christmas and new year are over with. Putting on a brave face for everyone feels impossible sometimes, but sometimes it's the only way. You think you'll never get through, but you will, somehow. Just remember
things would be much harder for your dad without you in his life. All the best. Luv M