I hate this cancer beast too and totally understand your thoughts and feelings. I am a leukemia survivor (childhood) and my Mom spent every weeknight with me in the hospital for four months straight, my Dad worked throughout the week but came every day after work and spent the weekends... I got out and had two years of chemo and thanks to God am okay today. In October 2007 my Mom was diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer and she died just shy of a year later at the age of only 63, I miss her so very much. Her last two months were just awful and bedridden and I don't wish it on my worst enemy. NOW just a few months after losing my Mom we find out Dad has cancer too! He is only 65 and moved in with me a month ago and started treatment today. I am stunned this is happening again and so soon since my Mom. It is so hard and not fair and although you should never doubt God, it does make you wonder. They say you aren't given more than you can handle, but I so wonder. I pray so hard this disease will spare my Dad... I can't be parentless this young!
I am sorry for you and for all that are going through this. It really does suck and more than anything it is just so unbearable to watch your loved one suffer!