Hi, I'm new to this site but taking a leap of faith.My mom died of breast cancer 27 years ago. I have the genetic mutation. I had DCIS in my right breast 10 years ago - followed by a lumpectomy and 7 weeks of radiation. 10 years later I have what they thought was DCIS but is early invasive breast cancer. i had a double mastectomy 3 weeks ago with immediate reconstruction - but i feel like i am totally out of touch with the "real world" whatever that is..I simply dont care. I'm seeing a therapist but....... My husband is loving and so supportive and I know i am not giving him what he is giving me. Has anyone gone through anything like this? I had a colon resection last year so I can't have chemo and I feel now like this disease will always hang over me.