Lindsay, you sound like a wonderful responsible person. You verbalized how you felt about your father very well and I am sure he was proud of you as his child. Thank you for the offers to be a "sounding board" for all of us. I lost my husband in February 2008 to stomach cancer. It is so hard. I, too, feel as though I am in a nightmare from which I cannot awaken. My memories of him keep me going and also knowing that some day we will be reunited. Til then.....one day at a time.
Diane