I give you and people like my mom courage. Losing a spouse I can't even imagine going through. Sorry about losing your husband, i'm sure he is proud of you. Sometimes we must take babysteps. My neighbor across the street her husband had a heart attack I believe? I don't really remember exactly, he had it a few months after my dad passed away and they were really good friends. When they were performing surgery on him he had a stroke. So Marie spent almost a year aiding her husband Joe taking him to therapy and spending time at the hospital. He finally passed away in January, it was rough on us all. Twice a week I go stay at her house and bring movies, puzzles, and games since she lives there by herself.