Thank you for your beautiful words. I was at church yesterday and the homily was on vocations, and that if you leave it in God's hands (and put him first) you will be happy. If you try to handle it yourself, it will fall apart. It was so similar to your message, (God is working). I do need to focus on faith. We battled infertility at the age of 21, and we thought (or atleast I, thought it was the end of the world). We ended up adopting three children from foster care (a whole other story), (God is great) and they are our children. They help me get through this, they need me. How is your husband cognitively? I noticed about two months before we knew anything was wrong that he seemed more forgetful and less "sharp." Not to any extreme but just a slight. I contributed it to turning 30. Now, he is less patient, always sleepy (medications), and the deep connection we have always had is there but there are times it feels gone, and I have never experienced that before. I then remember I need to make every day a good one and I do my best. His seizures occur in his sleep so I worry whenever he naps. I am not always home yet. How are your children doing? Only my oldest knows her dad has a brain tumor, the two boys do not (ages 3 and 5). She doesn't know the prognosis. Thank you for spending your valuable time "talking" with me. Have a great day being a baseball mom.