I truly understand how you feel. My husband had his 1st seizure one month after he turned 31. They told us it was from the migraine that he had before the seizure. Four days later he had another one while at work and was taken to the ER and that is when everything changed. His tumor began on the front left lobe and they removed about 40% of the tumor and brain in 2001. We went through radiation and chemo. Tumor did not grow or shrink for about 4 yrs.. Then in 2005 is started growing, we did the gamma knife. Then about a year later it grew a little more. Now every 2 mths. the MRI shows significant growth and swelling. His seizures were few and far between at first, but now they happen on a regular basis. I'm hear if you need to talk or just vent. Sometimes that is all I need is to vent. You and your family are in my prayers. It is very hard on the kids. I know most people look at my husband and says things like "it is sad to see him like that", or "this has to be so hard on him". They forget that he has a family going through this too. We will put your family on the prayer list at church.