I know it's "easy" for me to tell you to try to relax, but I have been where you are (three times with melanoma and last year with thyroid cancer). If you are confident with your doctor, go in for checkups as often as you want until you are comfortable. Your insurance company might not pay for it and it might be out-of-pocket, but if it gives you peace of mind--do it. I went to Sloan-Kettering Memorial in NY for a second opinion and felt like I was treated as well with my doctor at home (my doctors are more personable here, too)! You may have already stated, but where is your melanoma located? It's good to read what others are going through to be able to make decisions, but remember that you are taking care of it! You WILL be OK. Also, read positive success stories. It took me a long time to learn this. I hope it helps you some. Good luck to you + prayers. God is good.