My prayers are with you, I cried reading your message, yes its very hard, and I ask my dady to watch over me when he pass, of prostate cancer, and my children just lost there wonderful dad just 8 mts ago, and they are about your age, I too ask god to take him, and to please dont let him suffer any more, because thats not the man that I married, and to contiune to linger on is not what he would want, They are in a better place, where we will one day be with them, so just live your life and your moms legacy, because you will be with her again, be strong and stay focus,