I'm new to this blog so this is my first message. My dad was diagnosed with stage iv pancreatic cancer a month ago. It's after 1am and I can't sleep. This is a nightmare that u don't wake up from. I have a pit in my stomach from a broken heart. What scares me is the nightmare hasn't even begun yet. This week my dad goes for his second chemo treatment. He's at such a hopeless stage of the disease that I question if chemo is the right choice. I will do anything to keep my dad here with us but i don't want him to suffer more for no benefit in the end. This is an issue I and my family have been struggling with most. I just want what's best for my dad and I can't bear the thought of seeing him slowly die before our eyes or in pain . If anyone has any advice or similar experience it would be greatly appreciated.