It's been almost six months now since my brother Stephen (48) was taken from (GBM) and the pain in my heart feels just the same as the day he died. Everyone tells you that in time it will get better but it doesn't. No matter what you do through out the day how busy you try to keep it's always there. There is nothing I can do that stops it. His brithday was April 10th he would have been 49. I still ask God everyday WHY, why did this happen to my brother, he was young and had so much life left to live and I needed him still in mine. It all happend so fast, how could he have died so soon after they found it only six weeks thats no time at all. I have read so many other stories and other people have had so much more time than he did what went so wrong in his case??? People say you have your wonder memories of him and yes I do but right now those aren't enough I want him back and I want to know why and how this happend. His death has changed me I don't even no who I am anymore nothing is the same and I wonder will it ever be again. I don't no how to move on with out him the emptiness in my heart is so unbarable at times it feels like your going to die too. Will the memories of his final days ever leave me? To watch someone you love so dearly die right before your eyes does something to you that other's don't understand.
Well I'm sorry for going on like this I'm having a really bad day today. Thank you all for listening. My thoughts and prayers go out to everyone on here none of this is easy for any of us.
Keep fighting........
Steve's Little Sister, Susan