I am so sorry about the loss of your husband to pancreas cancer. I know the grief is unbearable and there is no relief from it as my husband died February 22 of stomach cancer. It's as though we are in a dream, isn't it? I can't believe he is gone. It's been two months and I still cry multiple times a day, and act like I am in a fog. It's so lonely. I can only advise you to keep your wonderful memories with Ronnie in your heart and know that you had a good life together. You did what you did for him out of love and he knows that now. You will be together again. Keep strong.
Diane