I pray for your Mums soul, and your well being too.
Lost my Mum to cancer in March 2004. Miss her as much today as I do every single day since the day she died, but with smiles and happy memories now. My Mum lasted just under four years, but had a good quality of life during her illness, until her last six months.
She died of sheer malnutrition and exhaustion. Her cancer never metastisised elsewhere, but the cancer cells made her so ill, she was unable to eat or drink in her last six weeks of life.
I wish you well, I wish you peace and I wish the awful memories of your recent times will gradually be replaced by happier memories of times before cancer got a grip on your Mum.
God bless. Losing a Mum is like losing your right arm, only 100 times worse!!