I was very sad to hear about your struggles with cancer. I also wanted to say that I can truly relate to your feelings. I am also very young ( I just turned 30 June 4th) I was originaly diagnosed with LMS (lieomyosarcoma)in 1999 at the age of 24 and recieved surgery to remove my left upper lobe of my lung which contained a large round mass that turned out to be LMS. I was then referd to an oncologist who told me I did not need to see her any longer just go for follow ups with my pulminologist who took xrays every couple of months to see if my cancer had returned. On my 5 year cancer free visit I was asked to get a CT scan. They found a 3x6cm mass behind my heart. It had been hiding there for who knows how long. Less than a month later it grew to 9x6cm. I began chemo to try and shrink it and it is now 12x7cm. I am currently undergoing different chemo and looking for a surgeon that will be able to remove the tumor from around my aorta, heart, and esophagus. I have a wonderful husband who takes excellent care of me but I am in need of a confidant who might understand how I am feeling. I hope this post finds you well.