On 5/8/2008
Travisdean wrote:
That is a question I ask myself every time they start a new regimine of treatments. The pain, the cost, the anemia, the fevers, the anger, the depression, I often wonder if it is all worth it.
Then I look at my kids and I think that if I stop trying, I will lose the time I have with them. My wife died of colon cancer in '04 and it was a short fight (41 days) but I know how she wanted to hold on to the family-- no matter the pain. I am trying to be that strong. My fight has been 4 years, 4 rounds of chemo and I am in my 3rd round of radiation now. The doctors are still finding new mets. as it spreads even in treatment, but I keep trudging on...
I guess it is easier to follow their advice than have to make a hard decision all by myself.
Thanks for asking this, I was afraid to ask myself much less others. You helped me 'figure out' how I feel.
Good luck
i'm so sorry for this tradgedy in you life, and you do have areason to keep on going... i am a bc survivor, 2x cvc survivor, and in my 2nd fight with non-hodgkins lymphoma, i do not do chemo, nor rads due to ineligiblity, i sign up for experimental research studies thet use alternative medicines. to this very day i'm a single mom of 4 elementary school children, am active in the pta and live, really live each day for its own to the fullest i refuse to waste a day squabbling about envy or petiness, and i treat myself to every craving imagineable because i've earned it. I also eat right, don't drink sodas or caffeine and excercize daily (yes sometimes i'm tired) but thats not an excuse so i do less but don't skip it completely, if i get tired i sit down, if i need a nap i take a nap...cancer takes away our ability to sleep right and rest well, so when it gives those feelings back to you take advantage of it and follow your body...i think that is the best we can do for ourselves...live well