I know what you are going through as my husband has stage 4 esophagul cancer. Last August he was diagnosed and the prognosis was 12-14 months. After having a stent inserted and removed and undergoing some chemo regimes, we are starting to pull back because we have discussed with our children about quality and quantity. If you do not have quality of life, are you really living? We cannot be selfish and want our loved one to linger. I think you know when you feel the sideeffects and pain you are going through are not going to change your prognosis, you need to put things in perspective as to how much more you want to do for you and how much more physically and mentally you are able to handle. We are trying to live each day fully and appreciate the time we have left. We still have things to do and take care of before he passes. He is still undergoing chemo but certain ones are not working and others cause reactions. So we are not giving up but trying to be realistic. Our Dr told us from the beginning what the status looked like and even doing chemo, her diagnosis is staying the same as from the beginning. As much as it hurts, we would rather have less time but a better quality of time in our house. It does take it's toll on the whole family when one has cancer. Don't give up on life but quality comes before quantity in our house. We will keep you in our prayers for strength for all of you.