Like you, I believe in God - and this one fact is making all the difference for me. There is a book you might enjoy reading - or getting on audio tape - called HEAVEN by Randy Alcorn. I listened to it on audio CD's in my car all the way up to Minnesota to visit my mom in the hospital (it takes 11 hours to listen to). It has rocked my world. I always have believed in heaven, but this book has changed my perspective on it and on how I spend my time now... and it has really helped me envision where my mom is going. I bought the book for my mom to read, but she is in total denial about her condition. I guess that's normal? She had one of the nurses put the book as far away from her bed as possible.