you are not alone I know exactly how you feel, it is very scary and the treament is so hard it took me 8 months just to start feeling whole again and now I might be facing another round. No one understands and don't seem to care fully, but they would if it had happend to them, at least that is how it is on my end, it really made me rethink my life and it is hard to talk to the people I know because they would think I was whining, so I just act like it doesnt bother me, but I am finding out with this latest news that it bothers me more than I thought. Good luck and god bless! Thanks for listening tonight is the first time I have really talked about sorry if I am dumping, and thanks!