Hi Evelyn,
Your message takes me back 4 years to when I began my journey. I am cancer free and enjoying life. Your feelings are quite normal. I took a calendar and marked my last scheduled chemo and radiation treatments in RED with lots of !!!!! Then I marked my first day with blue and crossed off each day. When I experienced side-effects, I looked at the calendar and said, "This is only temporary and I'll get through the treatments." Many prayers, the Lord and "toughing it out" got me through. Best wishes to you. You'll do just fine. I know everyone is different, but I was at a Ponderosa buffet 2 weeks after my chemo. I felt fine until my surgery and that took a little longer to recover from, but it is all worth it.