I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I know how you are feeling because I lost my mom not too long ago (July 2, 2007). It was very hard seeing her in the end and what this disease did to her.
I wake up everyday wishing she was here with me still, we lived together until she got sick, I'm 28yrs old. I talk to her now and then when I'm by myself which helps some but I know she is looking over me so that helps alot.