This is hard!!!
As I posted before, my husband was diagnosed with EC cancer with 1 node the last week of November. He went thru chemo and radiation. They told us he was *fixable*. February they scheduled surgery. The day before surgery we arrived for the pre-op stuff, and the surgeon gave us the news that it had spread to the liver, and there was nothing else he can do. We met with the onc. March 13th, and again was told that they could start chemo again, but it would only prolong the reality. My husband declined the chemo, because it made him deathly sick.
On May 12, my husband left us and went to a much better place. He is pain free and cancer free!
I find that by reading this message board, I was prepared for his dying, but was not prepared for the grieving. I am so lost. He was my rock!
I feel like he's just away and will be coming back, yet my heart is so heavy it hurts.
I know I am not the only one who has lost a loved one, can anyone please tell me if this will get easier in time? How long before I can go a day without the crying, and begging he'd come back?
Diana