I am sorry that the colp was such a bad experience for you.. I have had to take anti anxiety medication before going in to mine...
For the furture.. depending on what the results are your doc may suggest no treatment at this time, just watchful waiting. If this is the case please read the message "Human Pappolmius Virus" (sp?) it goes over a regiemen of vitamins and supplements that have now worked for two of us here to clear up our paps... I was CIN II and 6 months of the vitamins got me a normal pap...
If your doc suggests that you need treatment now please ask questions, see your report, understand what is going on with your body. Many docs want to jump right to a LEEP. this may not be best for you and your body but it is cheep and the docs love it....
Once you get your results let us know... there are many women with lots of experience on this site... I am sure many will step up and offer advice.
Best wishes to you on this journey.
Brandy