No wonder you are bewildered and terrified. What a horrific experience. I was hoping one of the professional members would see and respond to your message. Perhaps you could send a private message to one of them and get their advise that way. Actually the only one I can think of at the moment is a member named Oncryx. If you put that name in the search box then open one of the messages listed there, you will see the area where a private message can be sent. I am so sorry I cannot think of any other way to offer you help because your story really touched my heart.