The more research I do, the less hope I have. I don't see anyone who has survived stage IV rectal cancer with metastisis to liver. From what I'm able to see it either comes back in the colon or lungs. And it seems as though every surgery, every chemo and every radiation is just an expense borne by the family at a later date. I love my family and I don't want to leave them, but I also don't want to leave them bankrupt for a few extra months. I need to work to take care of my family, and all these procedures seem to incapacitate patients both physically and mentally. Given the really low survival rates at this stage, the exhorbitant costs and the incapacitating nature of the treatment, I don't know if I can justify all of this for maybe a year.