I was diagnosed with Colon Cancer and operated on in July of '01. The Oncologist told me I have stage 4 cancer and there was a lesion on my liver when they opened me up. I was told by the surgeon that he removed it during surgery.
I was convinced I was going to die so I kept my distance from people. I couldn't stand the thought of them crying over me as I got worse. I also couldn't stand the thought of the pain they would experience once I left this world. They being my husband, my 5 children, my father, 2 brothers and 3 sisters, my friends and the people I serve with at my church.
In '05 my Oncologist said I was ready to get my mediport removed but first he wanted me to have a PET scan. The scan showed a tumor at the original sight of the metastacy on the liver. So, more chemo of course! The chemo shrunk the tumor out of exsistence.
At that news I had an epiphany. I could have died in a car accident during those past 3 years. I could have developed an illness (besides cancer) that could have killed me. I could have had a stroke, a heart attack, anything could have taken my life during those 3 years besides the cancer. I decided I was going to live everyday as if it were my last day here on earth. I was going to embrace the world, my world, my family, friends and co-workers, the little boys next door, the cashier at the grocery store, everyone, everyday, to the fullest.
Sloan-Kettering was following my metastacy sight. Last week they found something growing at the original sight again. They're talking liver resection and chemo. I was told about the HAI chemo pump implantation and it sounds right to me. My surgeon is 50/50 about the treatment, my Oncologist isn't very supportive of it (why should he be? chemo pump - no biweekly treatments.) I understand the side effects are minimal in comparison to the year I slept (because of chemo treatment).
I'll let you know how things pan out. I'll keep a post here once a week to update you on my treatment and progress. Should be interesting - No?
Peace Out