This is the first time I have seen this site and i was wanting some advice. My dad was 44 when he was diagnosed with cholangiocarcinoma. His diagnosis was in the end of January in 2002 and we lost him in July of that year. The cancer became apparent when he began to get the jaundice symptoms and severe abdominal pains. At first our doctor assuered us it wasn't cancer but with in a couple weeks we found out that he was wrong. At 17 that is the worst news someone can give you. They told us that he was a rare case and that he didn't have long but he proved them wrong. Aside from the previous symptoms he seemed fine but quickly the cancer progressed and he got worse. Eventually he became bedridden which was hard because he was an outdoors person. He went through chemo and whatever else they could find but it just seemed to make things worse. He never stopped fighting but the cancer won after six months. I thought watching him slowly fade away and knowing i had to be the one there for my family was the hardest part but i was wrong. How do you move on with life after that? The rest of my family has so why can't I? Leaving for school a month after he passed away didn't help and it has been a little over three years since he died. I'm not trying to kill anyones hopes of recovery but i was hoping someone could tell me how they let go and moved on. I will take anyones opinion at this point because i need to do this before i graduate from college in a few months.