Debbie,
I am sorry sorry about your loss. I think the camp is a wonderful idea for your children. Question, are you taking care of yourself? I'm sure that it is not easy but you really need to take care of yourself for the benefit of your kids.
I am 37, my husband is 40 and my daughter is 13. I try not to get her overly involved in what is going on with him. She knows that he has cancer and that he will be on continued chemo. She really worries a lot though. She has asked me on several occassions if he is going to die and I really don't know how to answer her. Someone asked me today if I were prepared for my husband's death and all I could say is how can I be. I know that he isn't well and that death is a possibility but I don't know how I will make it without him. We married in 2004 although we dated for 8 years prior. I really feel like we are being cheated out of our marriage. There are so many things that we planned on doing that won't happen (atleast any time soon). I love my husband but his illness if definitely taking a toll on us. I stay stressed a lot, I have gotten to the point that I don't sleep a lot and I seem to be losing weight although I am not trying too. I recently had a scare of my own, I found a lump in my breast and had to have it removed. Fortunately, is wasn't serious.
What are you doing with yourself now? Where was your husband being treated?
I know that you miss your husband but he sounds like he was a wonderul man and that labor of love was one of the best things that I have heard in a long time. I must feel great to know how much your husband adored you and your children. I know that you all moved, what happened with the well? How are you all adapting to your new home?
I don't think that my husband believes that he is going to make is past this chapter in his life. We moved last week because the area that we were living in was changing drastically. The neighborhood had changed so much that my daughter couldn't walk 5 houses down the block without someone walking with her. He worried about being able to take care of us in the event that something happened and it was really stressing him so we moved to a much better area so that we could all be more comfortable. In fact, we moved a week ago. I found out yesterday that one of my neighbors was just robbed at gun point the other day. It was really a blessing to get out of there when we did.
Please keep in touch with me to let me know how you are doing. I would really like to know. Also, how did you hear about the camp for your children and where is it?
Lastly, sorry for the delayed response.
Janeen