Janeen , hello there, wishing you are all well,
I can't tell you just how much joy our correspondence between us is bringing me, even though our circumstances could have been for much happier reasons. I find that I'm looking forward each day for a chat.
Yesterday {Sunday} it was such a hard day, firstly I new that our lawnmower needed new blades so I bought them and lifted the mower onto the table and got organised went through many tools until I found the right sort to use to take off the old ones, but then I came to a complete stop, do you think I could take off the old blades NO they were just so tight that I had no hope, I was so fustrated as I knew that it was the only thing stopping me from being able to change them and then mowing the lawn and knowing that I have done it on my own. It would have been another acheivement that I need to accomplish. Two hours later I'm still trying when my brother-in-law and sister-in-law came over for a visit, he had a great deal of trouble changing them as well {It made me feel a lot better] Any way the lawns are mowed the edged are trimmed the yard looks neat and tidy and I do feel proud of doing almost everything on my own. I do hate using the lawnmower but it is something that has to be done. I have been trimming the trees down to small reachable sizes so that they are easier to look after, I know that I'm only making myself exhausted each day so that I don't think about bad events as sometimes they dominate my brain matter and I can't get through the day without being so down and that in turn makes the kids sad so they know now that when I start digging or chopping or gardening to keep apart for a while.
To day is Monday it is a better day very sunny and warm for a winters day. My daughter is going to have a friend over to stay, and she is very excited as her friend lives near our old house area and hasn't seen her for a long time . My son has taken the opportunity to ask his mate if he could stay at his house. As it is still school holidays it will be fun for them.
My eldest daughter has just been told {she was one of three} that they are terminated immediately {they wrote this in a letter} due to a down size of labour force. She was an Aged Care Nurse, and, I felt, very good and caring at her work. So now she has decided to train in office work instead so I wish her luck.
My daughters friend has arrived and between the loud music and giggling {doesn't laughter make you feel good}, I am going to try and cook a roast chicken dinner, before the house is turned into a messy pile of clothes and make-up.
my best wishes to you all until next time
Debbie xxx