Hi Debbie,
I'm so sorry I haven't written in a while. I hope you know that I think about you and your family all of the time and feel very blessed to have you to talk to. Unfortunately, Cancer Compass doesn't allow you to put your email address out there so we'll have to work around that part. I'm sure it is for our own protection I too have an email account with hotmail and sbcglobal.net. I've had both of my accounts for quite some time now. My id is --- Message edited by CancerCompass staff: for personal protection, email address removed. Please review CancerCompass Member Guidelines at
http://www.cancercompass.com/common/guidelines.html ----. I haven't written in a while because my husband has been really sick. He put off his chemo treatment because he said that he just wanted to take a break from it. He then turned around and ate some food that didn't agree with him and got really ill. He started his new chemo treatment on Monday and is now trying to hang in there. My daughter, just like yours is going through puberty and can be a handful most of the time. She burst out crying a week or so ago saying that I always seem frustrated and seem to take it out on her. I explained that I am just under a lot of stress but certainly don't mean to take things out on her. A big part of the problem is that she didn't have anything to do this summer so we kinda got on each others nerves. She is at camp now for a week which should give her an opportunity to havea good time with her friends and other girls her age. School will start soon and that will be good for her as well. I am now trying to keep the boys away from her. She is maturing now and the boys are starting to take notice so I need to keep her focused. I don't want her to take the attention from boys the wrong way because she thinks that I don't have time for her. I am planning an overnight thing for us so that she and I can talk and get back on the same path.
How are things with you and your family? I'm sorry to hear the the government is giving you the run-around. Have you been able to get the information that you were waiting for? I really know how you feel when you are down, you are in a funk and don't know how to get out. I worry so much now about what I'm going to do if something should happen to my husband. How will I make it, what will I do. I never really realized how much I depend of him. He used to take care of so much and I always took those things for granted and now that I am doing them myself, I feel lost. I mean little things from cutting the grass to car maintenance. I recently bought a lawnmower and have to now start cutting the grass.
I'm really sorry that I haven't been there for you but I promise I will do much better. Please share your email id with me and I'll figure out how to get in touch with you. With mine, just add the account. Anyway, I'll be in touch soon. I hired my cousin to do some work at my house so I could get it rented out, unfortunately, I trusted him and paid him and the work never got done so I am paying 2 mortgages right now because I can't rent the place without the work being done. I has really had me depressed. I now have to find the money to have someone else do the work and that is really a drag and it has my husband worried about finances as well. It is 10:50PM on Wednesday, August 16, 2006 and I am about to go to bed but will definitely write again tomorrow.
Until then, Peace and Blessings to you and your family. May the Lord keep you and your family in the palm of his hand for renewed strength and protection. I know that your husband is watching over you and your family and is pretty pleased with your strength and love.
Talk to you soon,
Janeen