Dear Janeen, I can't tell you how relieved I was when I received your message. How is hubby going?, well now I hope. It is good that he has re-started chemo, any chance of something working towards fighting the cancer really has to be attempted. I certainly can't know how it makes a person feel, only can speak of my own experience of how John coped, and he wished that he had a chance of trying anything that might have worked. Is there a chance of any other procedures for your hubby to have for some relief of symptoms.?
I have finally received the group certificate that I have been fighting to obtain for over a month now. After many phone calls one operator went that one step further for me and found out the mail was not being sent as John's files have been transferred to a deceased files section, even though they knew he had died after me explaining the situation every time I rang, anyway she was able to re-write them and fax them to me instantly. After all my worry of getting them , when I had my tax done, I am only receiving $500.00, because we received his Permanent and Disabled super payout one week before he died, so apparently it changes the taxable amount. Oh well at least I don't owe them anything. I have just come home from the orthodontist and he wants $5800.00 for my sons dental plates and braces. I tell you it just keeps raining down on me at the moment. The storm has to stop soon and let something good happen.
My daughter has the chance of going away with a diabetes group for 13 to 18 year olds in October to a theme park it is in another state, and the trip is for 6 days, but there is diabetic nurses, educators and of course Doctors, so I have asked them if they could sponsor her for at least half of the cost, so here is hoping, I don't think there will be a problem. And yes the boys have been around for at least a year now she is very popular and unfortunately very imature, but very maturely developed, and she very much craves the wrong attention.
How is your lawn mowing going , I don't really mind the grass cutting but I don't know how to use the wipper snipper for the edges and around the fences. The car maintanence is a worrying thing as I know absolutely nothing about cars and to have someone look at anything it costs a great deal.
I would like womeone to write a book on how to do the things we have to do, in a way that we could learn by easy to see pictures so you know what part they are talking about I find that if it is only written I sometimes don't know what part is what. Also there could be a book for men as well , if their partner dies and they have never done any household things e.g. washing machines, ironing, sewing, especially if they have children to bring up. Anyway I'll keep looking in the shops.
Today I was sitting outside looking up at the
sky, it was amazing the way the clouds were just like the white tops of the waves at the beach, we are almost through our winter and spring is just 2 weeks away so it was very warm, and as I stared at the clouds something came over me and tears were running down my face, I got really angry with the way things have turned out and yes I even was angry with john, for getting sick and not beating the cancer. (I really do not think he could have tried any harder) Of course it lasted for only a few seconds but some how the peaceful clouds made me think of him up there and he left me here and feeling so miserable. (Now I have had my self pitying minute),
well it's 11.20 p.m and it's time for bed or I'll never get up in the morning to wake everyone up,
so until we next chat,
Debbie