I feel your pain. I have been trying to help a sister, brother in law and mother all with colon cancer. I was widowed at 28 and had a stroke at 38. Now you know, Im understanding all you are going through. First, take care of yourself. Take up a craft, work on puzzles or cook. Get your husband and daughter crafting with you. Anything to give your mind a break. I found that a walk in the yard and thinking of things I could do in the garden was wonderful. Be sure you are opening your shades and enjoying the sun. Dont lock youself in the house. Get someone to help you at the house and go have lunch with a friend. Fix your hair, put on makeup, it makes everyone feel better! Second, dont lose your hope. That is a waste of time to think of the worse, it helps no one. Third, ask questions. The doctors will answer and knowledge will help overcome helplessness. And last, do whatever you think you need to. Live your life with no regrets, make the decisions that in your heart, you know are right. If your husband wants to go to the beach, by gosh take him. He will feel better doing whatever the heck he wants to and so will you. You can do this, you know it. Work to give your family a happy life and you will all be fine. My prayers and wishes are with you all. Colleen