Ron,
I can just feel your pain still coming through your words.
I think the scary part of all this is that I keep thinking in short-term instead of long-term life. I have a vacation planned next month, same one I always take with a friend each year, and all I can think is how will I be able to go away with CANCER still looming over us.
The hardest part is existing. Our sons are 23 and 26, they do not have that fear of the long-term. They talk about things in the winter, etc and all I can think is "what will CANCER be doing then?"
We have to deal with the initial illness, then the treatment but there is little said of the AFTER recovery. We made it almost all the way through treatment but CANCER is still controlling our lives.
Find some way to take control back. I know the discomfort of no saliva is enough to make the Pope swear but you have to find a way to LIVE.
I work so hard to stay focused and positive but everyone has to break down from time to time.
If there is a branch office, congress member, etc that we can write to to contribute to your efforts to have coverage from your Service years tell me where to sign up!
Louise