How should I take this: I have had this small lump of cells for 1.5 yrs and recently it has begun to bother me. It feels bad for me to swallow anything and I have to cough a lot and then it feels odd in that area too. I visited a nose-ear-throat specialist with it and he said it (tissue of cells -?-) is located in between of 2 large neck-veins (there where that large neck-vain divides to 2). It is something like 'hard' tissue around that small thing which produces white cells.
He said that I can wait and check it in every 2 weeks if it has grown or go into a biopsy... what should I really do or react to that? Yesterday I decided to get an appointment from cancer-specialist in our nearest big city. I have an appointment for him in 14th of Jan.
All I would like to know is that: is there any possibility for that to be something 'not bad' or do I have to check it out every now and then for the rest of my life and be worried about it?
My father had a kidney-cancer. He died in 1992 and I was pretty young then - I miss him a lot and he struggled well when he got sick. I am afraid of cancer - I do have to admit that. I saw how much my dad had to do trying to keep alive - and I believed all the time that he would be ok someday. It surprised me to hear that he was dead though I had seen how cancer had made him smaller and he had to use a wheelchair. I believed that he had every chance to come back to normal life till he died - but no, he just died suddenly (within 2 yrs). I kept hopes up even though he got that machine to give him painkillers and it was difficult to put in right place (that needle came out too easily) and then he suffered a lot. We took care of him at home but I wasn’t able to be there for him. My mom and sis helped him and I tried to help too - but I felt bad of seeing him in that condition. I want to remember him as he was: strong and so full of energy and ready to help others. I didn’t believe that he would die before getting very old. I know I could have done something more - but still I know that I didn’t have any tools to do so. I just wasn’t able to do anything more than I did.
So actually - I have 2 problems - this small group of abnormal cells and- how my father’s disease and that he died to it - bothers me.