I was diagnosed with Invasive (inflammatory) Lobular Carcinoma of the right breast in Feb. 2002, started chemo (Adriomycin and Cytoxin) for 12 weeks, once every three weeks for four rounds, took a 3 week vacation from chemo and then started Taxol for 12 weeks, once weekly. I had a break for a month or so and then had a radical mastectomy on Nov. 1 with reconstructive surgery (free tran flap from stomach) that had to be removed the next day because of complications. I also had a reduction of the left breast at the same time so it would better match the reconstructed breast. Oh, well, I ended up with one pretty perky breast and a tummy tuck after 24 plus hours of surgery in 2 days. I had a lot of lymph nodes removed because they were affected by the cancer - stage 3b by pathology report. I started radiation treatments in January 2003 and finished up on March 3. I am also on Femara. Well, here I am, still standing and wondering what to do with the rest of my life. I don't have to go back to the cancer center anymore, except for 3 mo. check ups. I felt much safer when I was there every week because someone was always checking on something and I had blood work done weekly. Now that I'm free I feel like my high wire act just lost its safety net. Does anyone else out there feel this way?