Oh my - thank you - my husband has melanoma and has been given 5 months which is nearly up and I am doing just what you are. I am 34 years old and have 2 kids 3 & 1 and I am up on my own ow crying - we can't talk anymore about him going and so we don't talk - he is so ill he sleeps all the time - if you need a friend I am here - you made me feel normal - thank you