It is very important that you seek help in dealing with your husband's diagnosis. A Licensed Clinical Social Worker that specialized in chronic illness or grief counseling should be able to help you deal with these feelings. It is very important to remember that your husband is the one who is dying. He needs you. Although a part of you will die with him, you are both alive now, and you need help in learning to live until this disease takes his life. He needs you and your emotional support now more than ever because of what he is facing...the end of his life. You don't want to look back and wish that you had consulted someone to help you with these feelings. Contact your physician for help or referral to help you cope and to help you make the most of the time your family has together. Best wishes!